There is no right and wrong

As long as you have an excuse
As long as you can stall it out
As long as you can blur the line
And in your own mind extend the doubt

So that it goes on and on
From compulsive to obsessive
Detached from living rhythm
The pathology becomes possessive

Till it overwhelms
It's own self induced volunteer
It takes a lot of work
It takes a lot of years

To break down the human psyche
Till the disconnection is complete
Till torture itself is not enough
To give the practitioner any relief

Illusion and confusion combine
To spin a web of self deceit
It is deconstructive and destructive
When power and no responsibility compete

Somebody always gets hurt
And oh what heart ache it brings
How can you ever learn to fly
If you won't even admit

When you have broken wings



Neils
8:33 am
06/16/2012
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transcribed this time
8:40 pm
06/16/2012

N....again

Here we go again

Here we go again

Let me ask you this
Is it here we go again
More empty words of promise
But no real substance as to friend

What is it you want to be
Where is it you want to go
Is there no end to the madness
Is it all for show

Don't you ever get lonely
Don't you cry out in the dark
Is there any realness out there
Is it all but passing remarks

Where is the heart
Where is the flow
Where is the beauty
The evening lights glow

And still the demons
Try to find their way in
What is it you see as threat
From what do you defend

I use to know the answers
Now I only cry like a river
You can never take enough
To learn to be a giver

Hey take a look outside
Isn't that quite a moon
While inside every seed
Is a flower longing but to bloom



Neils
5:20 pm
02/18/2011
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transcribed this time
6:14 pm
02/19/2011

N..again

Blanket Generalities....rarely keep us warm

Blanket Generalites
Rarely keep us warm

All men always do this
All men always do that
But women are free
And individual is a fact

But to me
Woman is my spiritual other
I'll tell it to my sisters
I'll tell it to my brothers

And I will not fall into
The polarized simple lines
That tear us all apart
Like we can't make up our minds

We must dare to think for ourselves
And not blindly join this or that cause
Doesn't all this blanket generalty
Give one some impetus for pause

Not all sunsets are the same
Neither are all sunrises
The world still has it's mysteries
It's good and bad surprises

It's true

Some men can be bastards
And don't know what they speak of
However some men are brave and admirable
And stand for truth honor and love

And yes
Yes it is also true

Some women are like angels
Some are merely gold diggers after riches
However some are inspirational beyond compare
While some well

Some are down right bitches



Neils
5:20 pm
02/07/2011
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transcribed this time
10:18 am
02/09/2011

N....again

It's ok...It's ok

It's ok to be stupid

It's ok to keep your focus
Petty obsessed and small
It's ok to go ahead
As long as your pace

Is no faster than a crawl

Get along with the right people
And you won't disturb the flow
The world revolves only around me
And what I decide I'm willing

To learn and know

Stand back everybody
I'm a genius in my own time
Stand back everybody
I'm a legend in my own mind

Laugh it up
Being stupid is ok
Mediocre is the goal
In everything we do and say

I'm only kidding
No one is better than anyone else
There's no room for improvement
Why don't you take care of yourself

Aren't I cute and cuddly
Like simple dimples and pimles
Haven't ya heard

Aren't I edgy and funny
Specially the way I throw around

The word turd



Neils
8:26 am
02/09/2011
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transcribed this time
8:38 am
02/08/2011

N....again

Silly girls and less than public conversations

Boy

That Sarah Palin is stupid
Boy that Bill Maher is funny
Drugs are a victimless crime
And maybe it's sort of about money

Did you hear about the concerts
At the White House and who attends
Man that Obama is cool isn't he
He has the greatist friends

Let's don't call it amnesty
But in reality that's what we seek
Let's call those whites racists
Every time they open their mouth to speak

There's enough stupid apologists
Among them that that will work
We can turn them against themelves
With those useful idiot jerks

The news is on our side
Watch what they focus on
They are the fifth column
And will be our willing pawns

Come on everybody
Gather up your drugs and guns
Let's flood across the borders
And have some revolutionary fun





Neils
9:12 am
06/12/2010
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transcribed this time
8:05 pm
12/12/2010

N...again

What's your sign..

No virginia....

They're not all carrying leafblowers
Some are monsters and thugs
Some of them are smugglers
Bringing in money guns and drugs

They're not all innocent waifs
Looking for a better way
A lot of them belong to gangs
And bring their darknes to our days

They're not merely undocumented
Yearning to be free
They are invaders from down South
And commonly steal identities

Dui's murders and violent crime
Overcrowded prisons as well
Than idiots promote early release
And it's making me mad as Hell




Neils
10:45 am
03/19/2010
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transcribed this time
8:02 pm
12/12/2010

N....again

Maybe when

Maybe when there's no place to run
Maybe when there's no place to hide
Maybe that would be the best time
To step up and decide

To deal with it all one on one
To deal with it body mind and heart
Maybe straight up out of the gates of fate
Would be a good place to make a fresh start

When this life is leading but to
Where it is that no one can deny
That the truth always leads us back to
What we saw with our own eyes

Between betrayl and the Winter wind
Which is it that is more cold
Again and again we must look within
To find the time to find our soul


Neils
9:04 am
12/10/2010
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transcribed this time
3:41 am
12/11/2010

N.....again